Mornings at a cafe, abortion debate and Am I an attention seeker?

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Almost every morining, I stay at the Idiya cafe nearby my house to study English or spend the time for waking-up-early club. I suspect that some of the members in the group look like cheating by taking pictures of the desks. Everybody has a desk at home! Take another photo of the things you don't have at home! This club's goal is to get up early and go studying outside of their house. If they are cheating, it's unfair for the other members who keep our rules and it is definitely meaningless to them as well. What is the point of cheating? Anyway, I woke up early today and came here to study English to compensate the time I had spent on sleeping yesterday. However, in the back of my mind, it might be impossible to study English because I've failed to study English at a cafe everytime, always ended up with browsing the internet, managing my blogs and seeing if there are someone who leaves comments about my posts. But I have no choice but to do this at least once a week because I pretend to go to work. Fortunately, I ca get home by 2:40 in the afternoon. But today is a little bit diferent from the other days at cafes. I had 3 English classes; 20 minutes of speaking English with tuters on the phone and 25 minutes on Skype. And now I even write down my thoughts in English! What a miracle it has become for me! I'm proud of myself even though I also spent same amount of time on useless stuff like checking my blog or browsing the internet. 

 

2.

Tuesday is the day when I have a English conversation club. So I can get to express my opinions on something I don't talk usually in even Korean. These days, I'm so glad that the one who has dominated conversations is so busy at work. He hasn't come to the club for almost a month. So I can get my own time of speaking English. But yesterday was a little bit frustrating because of the leader's view on an abortion. I understand what she says like having a baby is a bliss but she also doesn't get why gay couples have their children. She said "It is too much for them." "They had enough." "Why do they go though another hurdle like raising kids?" This part is I didn't understand ; "they had enough." I wonder who decides the limit of the ENOUGH. They are openly gay people but they just reached their limits? The traditionally married couple are only entitled to having a child? Is that what she says? but I can't talk back to her because she just kept talking her opinion while not trying to understand the other side. And I don't want to argue with her not any longer because she bought me foods so much time. It is silly but I'm weak when it comes to someone buying me food. And I don't want to make another enemy in my small world. 

 

3.

I think I am an attention seeker. I'm not eager to make Korean subs of American comedies but I want to do that because many people leaves comments like "Thanks" for me. Is it really worthwhile continuing to make the subs for Modern Family? But it is so popular that I can't stop doing it. The current episode is more difficult to translate than the previous one but I want to see many people's comments down blow my post. I should balance my time between learning English and spending time on making subs but it's itching whenever I don't make the subs.